When will I be a woman?

Hey everyone! As some of you may know I turned twenty in November, which is an age that always seemed so grown up to me before I turned twenty myself.

I look at other people my age or a little younger or a little older and think wow they look so grown up, they are a woman. I look at myself and see a girl, I still look the same as I did when I was about fifteen. Considering the fact I’ve been the same height since I was about twelve it should probably come as no surprise that I still look like a child, but that is beside the point. Now, everyone says I should be grateful, when I’m older I’ll appreciate my baby face, but right now it would be nice to be ID’d without them having to do a double (triple) take or feel like a child when I see other twenty year old’s.

I never been able to imagine myself as an adult, it was always weird to me, to think one day I’d be all grown up. But I sit here now still asking my Mum, my friends and myself when will I look like an adult? Will I just wake up one day and think, now you’re an adult Lauren, or you at least look the part. Now in some ways I’m definitely putting off the growing up process, going to university was a huge part of that, but sometimes I would just love to look my age. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only person that feels this way but it would be great to know that I’m definitely not alone.

Thank you so much for reading this weeks post and I hope you enjoyed.

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  1. Hey, I’m 51 and a mum of 4. When I had my first, Grace, she scared me, I thought omg how are people leaving me alone with her? I’m just a child! I was 24. When my children were under 18, I was a mother to them and not a friend. Once they hit 18 I’ve treated them as adults (but still my babies) and we have become friends so again they’ve kept me feeling young inside. I think that is why I write YA, my teens only feel around the corner and I still feel the shadow of doubt and low self esteen. I’m a contradiction, maybe lots of us women are, I don’t care what anyone thinks of me other than my family and those that read my books, yet this teenager shadow is there when I write.

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