I’m sure if I asked you if you know who you are yet I’d get a variety of answers. Recently I’ve been feeling very lost in myself, I feel like I’ve lost myself. Now this all sounds very deep, dark and miserable and yes it has been getting me down a little but its induced boredom and frustration more than anything. Now at the age of 19 I can bet some of you are thinking of course you don’t know who you are yet, and that is true, we are all changing all the time, whether we are 19, 35 or 57. We are never the same person we have been all our lives, if we never change, we never grow.
I have been sitting around in my room at uni for the past two weeks, bored out of my mind! Usually reruns of Gossip Girl is enough to keep me occupied for a while but since I got back after Christmas break, especially without an ID, I’ve been bored to tears, literally. Now don’t get me wrong, I love my uni friends and have such a good time with them, I have been working out which has also kept me occupied. But since losing my ID on my FIRST night back home I have had a very tame month and a half, now I am not saying alcohol and going out is what defines me and the only thing that makes me happy. But what I have realised is, I do enjoy going out and spending time with my best friends and simply just being around my family, despite maybe not spending that much time in the house last time I visited, sorry mum.
What I’m saying is, I think it’s the things that make us happiest that really make us who we are. And so what if that means getting drunk and stumbling home with my friends makes me, me? Having a movie night, eating Chinese with my best friend, looking like we haven’t been outside in days is also a part of who I am, writing this blog makes me, me. Maybe what makes you, you, is reading a good book in bed on a Sunday morning, going on a walk along the beach, or playing football.
So if you’re ever feeling lost, do what makes you happiest, because when you are at your happiest, you are you.